M. I. S. S.

M - my
I - inner
S - soul
S - suffers

there will be days where I will miss him.
there will be nights that will be tough to go by.
there will be times of loneliness
there will be a season of heartbreak
but stay strong girl..
God will carry you thru :)

Learning to breathe - by switchfoot :)

hello, good morning, how ya do?
what makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too :)
all of my regrets are nothing new.

so this is the way
that i say I NEED YOU
this is the way
this is the way

that i'm learning to breathe
i'm learning to crawl
i'm findinf that You and
YOu alone can break my fall
I'm living again, awake and alive
i'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies

hello, good morning, how ya been?
Yesterday left my head kicked in
I never thought i could fall like that
never knew I could hurt this bad :(

trials!

it's EXAM week! two papers down. another three more to go :) today, we had 15 people during prayer meeting. YAY!! :) itz amazing. HEHE. and we had a good time of prayer. After prayer, the others left, me and my classmates stayed back in Chapel to sing! woots! we had a way fun time! SINGING, LAUGHING, PLAYING.. awesome time together :) cause none of us had any papers at 11am. Praise God for giving me goody friends!

Am back home now. I wana go for my run really badly! but I think it's gonna rain. I'm still praying that somehow the sun will shine, and the dark clouds will go away. shoo shoo! LOL. I LOVE RUNNING btw. and later gonna cover accounts subject. STUDY, STUDY, STUDY! whee.. another amazing day to live, be glad and rejoice :)

It's not only my study's trials though. I've been going through much tough times. and I think God has been speaking to me bout it. He spoke thru my CF president's sharing on how we ought to rejoice in times of trials. be thankful for it! and its not always about getting over trials and tribulations, its the outcome that matters. at the end of the day, did you change and become a better person? or are you still the same? and today, during morning devo, i also learn that when you ask God to purify you, be READY for trials and tough times! cause that is how we will be purified. refined like gold and silver. through heat and fire.

I realise God is refining me. It sure is a tough time. Feeling so near to Him, yet so far. Wanting to draw closer, yet its like, there's a wall in between us :( It's truly trying. and many a times, i wana give up. But with all these sharings, I am encouraged to press on! There is always a reason for everything. God is in control. I will keep trusting YOU Lord. Teach me and mould me, to be more like Jesus. more of you Lord, less of me.

TRIALS! x)

OVER YOU

Now that its all said and done, I can't believe you were the one
to build me up and tear me down like an old abandoned house
what you said when you left, just left me cold and out of breath
i felf if I was in way too deep, guess I let you get the best of me

Well I never saw it coming (not exactly), I should have started running
A long, long time ago
and i never thought I'd doubt you, but I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know

I'm slowly getting closure, i guess it's really over
I'm finally getting better
and now i'm picking up the pieces, spending all of these years
putting my heart back together

'cause the day i thought i'd never get through
I GOT OVER YOU :)

me love this song! HAHA. it helps strengthen me alot.
i knew deep down that he wasn't the best for me.
sometimes.. YOU JUST KNOW IT.
though it hurts a lil, it's the right thing to do.
and God will give me the grace and strength
to pull thru.

the day i thought i never get through
I GOT OVER YOU :)

check this out!

haha. enough of emo-ish post.
if you do not know me yet, I'm Chris :)
a simple girl with a heart of a servant.. i hope!

anyway,lemme share this verse with you.

1 Thessalonians 5:4-11

but you, brothers, are not in darkness so that this day should surprise you like a thief. You are all sons of the light and sons of the day. We do not belong to the night or to the darkness. So then, let us not be like the others, who are asleep, but let us be ALERT and SELF-CONTROLLED. For those who sleep, sleep at night, and those who get drunk, get drunk at night. But since we belong to the day, let us be SELF-CONTROLLED, putting on faith and love as a breastplate, and the hope of salvation as a helmet. For God did not appoint us to suffer wrath but to receive salvation through our Lord Jesus Christ. He died for us so that whether we are awake or asleep, we may live together with Him.Therefore, encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.

Every Christian has their struggles. All da more if one is a young adult living in such a wretched and wayward world. I struggle with self-control. To the point where I take God's grace and my faith for granted. but Jesus is coming back soon. and we ought to be alert and self-controlled :) God doesn't has to specify, just one word, SELF-CONTROL , speaks volumes to all of us. This verse is a reminder to me, that Jesus did not die, so that I can continue to be asleep. But rather, He died so that I may live with Him. so why continue living in my carnality and sin? Let this be a reminder to all of us :) Jesus is coming back real soon. Let's be ready to meet Him!

I WILL ARISE..

despite the millionth time i've fallen

I WILL ARISE..
eventhough my faith is broken

I WILL ARISE..
knowing that Your word has spoken

I WILL ARISE..
with all my sins forgotten

I'm sorry for failing You time and time again.
But I will arise, Lord. and not let You down again.
Even if it means bein tested,
even if it means falling down again,
I will yet arise,

for the Lord is my shepherd
I shall not be in want.
You make me lie down in green pastures.
You lead me beside quiet waters.
You restore my soul.
You guide me in paths of righteousness
for Yoiur name sake
Eventhough I walk thru the valley of the shaddow of death
I will fear no evil
for You are with me,
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me :)

thank you for Your word Lord.

let. you. go.

it's time to move on.
God has more in store for me.
enough of looking back,
enough of missing you that I once had,
enough of thinking over my regrets,
enough of days spent in bed,
not knowing how to mend my heart.

it's time to move on.
I will leave my future in God's hand.
look forward to years spent with Him,
look forward to things yet unseen,
look forward as a new life begins
once more, with You in the centre of it all.

It's time
to. let. you. go.